Yikes, it's rather late considering how much stuff I have to do tomorrow morning. Time completely got away from me. I'm not complaining, however, since I spent the bulk of the evening in a very enjoyable manner, tracking down obscure quotes related to the cult of Arsinoe Philadelphos. It's been a while since I've allowed myself to be so thoroughly consumed by a research project. I missed the thrill of the hunt.
I am rather excited, though. I have so much material I'll probably have to break the post up into four sections (or four separate posts) - 1) Sources related to her life 2) Information on her posthumous cultus 3) Purely mythological material and 4) Miscellaneous citations.
This is going to be
so cool! (Even though I'm sure no one else is going to even read this, let alone care.) I may end up doing the same thing for the other Ptolemies I honor.
Which brings me to something else I've been pondering.
My religious life has been ... in flux of late. (When isn't it?)
Well, that's not entirely true. My relationship with Dionysos, Hermes, Spider, the Willamette and Nymphai, and the Ptolemies has been solid as ever - and in the case of Hermes has actually been getting stronger.
Unfortunately, I can't really say the same about the rest. Back around the trip to New England it seemed like things with Horus were going to pick up ... only to fall flat. I've had flickers from Seth and Apis, but very indirect. And as for Hathor, Aphrodite, Nephthys, Anubis, and Sobek ... complete dead air. From me, and apparently from them too.
Honestly, I'd be much more concerned about this if things weren't going so well with the first group. I dunno, maybe I should be, maybe it's time to put more energy and effort into building up those relationships. Or maybe I'm just kidding myself. Maybe they're only ever going to be peripheral deities, fading in and out of my life periodically and I should instead really work on things with my core gods and spirits. How far could I get if I applied myself fully with a narrower focus? (And in the case of the Ptolemies, I feel this urgent, insistent, and territorial (?) obligation to do something big for them.
Big.) On the other hand, these are awesome gods whom I've had powerful experiences with in the past, and in some ways they are vitally important to the work I feel I'm supposed to be doing. But am I kidding myself? Looking for an easy way out? Missing some big piece of the puzzle?
Arrggh. I dunno. I go back and forth on this. Maybe the answer is that I don't need an answer, and I should just see how things develop naturally. As a Libra, that is, of course, the most appealing prospect. But is it the right one?